So while watching new moon I asked myself why do women/people love Edward Cullen. Aside from him supposedly being perfect to look at I began to think about it a little more deeply and came to this theory:
Edward Cullen is a woman.
Yes I know its a bit different and I'm not trying to offend anyone but I believe its that Edward is a woman, he has all the woman traits, hes obsessive he's manipulative he isn't really a sexual predator either. In my opinion the relationship between Edward and Bella is not overtly sexual, this I feel is more apparent in the films then the books. Either way I think its this kind of lack of fear in being forced by a man into sexual situations that makes Edward so attractive. Sure women like sex, but young girls who may or may not have done it always have that fear in the back of their mind that one day they will have a bad sexual experience. This is why Edward who is able to sleep next to Bella without leaping on her or doesn't pin her against the wall and violently take her. These fears that girls have (in particular the young)against normal men are not present within Edward. The reason I believe Edwards a woman is because he has this whole over the top tell you what you want thing, this restraint in sexual need and yet strength when it comes to dealing with people he loves. He also like some women (sorry to say) runs away from his problems and spouts terrible ideals of love. Perhaps not a woman but more like a girl. He's appealing to girls because he is like your best friend but with benefits. Hes "attractive" "dangerous" and "immortal". That is not to say those that like Edward are secretly lesbians or have underlying homosexual tendencies its just that he allows women to feel comfortable maybe even safe, reading about a man that doesn't want to have sex all the time. Girls especially those at high school are so used to seeing boys abuse other girls to gain sexual favours and advancement (that is from my own experiences in high school life.)

So my belief is that Edward is A) A woman and B) has little to no sex drive so therefore is not viewed as a threat.
We all know that there are those crazy girls/women who will stalk boys they like, who'll follow them round then act like they hate them. Who will want to protect those they love anyway they can and who will have inner angst over small issues.

and well see for yourself:
English C :|
Photog B :)-already knew this


Art B :D

History....................A :O :O -hyperventilate- WAS NOT EXPECTING THAT, I thought yeah a C would be nice so I could drop english...BUT AN A well happy with these results the B in art was also a pleasant surprise as my art teachers had given me an E then said I was lucky to be getting a C and it was "highly" unlikely to be getting anything other then that. But yayay so english BE GONE and it was all in one day ;)

So it happened I finally got ill -_- (it would happen when the swine flu epidemic or pandemic whatever crap they're calling it)   and scared the shit out of me when I woke up feeling like death and hallucinating like mad as I usually do when I get ill (I actually go a bit mental to be honest)  I thought I may well have had swine flu as the sister who's room is across the landing from mine had quarantened herself due to having all the symptons of swine flu. So me being both paranoid and lacking in an immune system a mist with having a few thoughts or "premonitions" that my death was coming soon, I pretty much freaked out (a bit more then I usually do when I get ill). I wouldn't stay in my room for more then a few minutes because it "scared me" thats right my room "scared me." Any way so Day one of Bex and her cold went some thing like this:

So I got my sims three a few months ago and I thought hey lets set up a gallery so people (mainly myself) can see what I've been up to! I've decided to make mini stories and captions to make it a little more fun! anyway if you got time take a quick look:

Go on click it ;D

I MET JOHNNY DEPP AND I GOT HIS AUTOGRAPH AND HE SPOKE TO ME AND MY FRIEND!
the convo goes like this:
johnny signs my magazine and I say: thank you -really grateful- he looks up looks at me looks away then looks back at me and my friend nic-
Johnny: You alright?
Nic: Yeah
Johnny: looks like your getting a bit crushed!
Nic: Lol yeah
Johnny: Better get out then!
according to nic he continued to speak to us for awhile afterwards but I was long gone! he was actually looking at me and nic IN THE EYES! I love him forevers now!

I can't believe hes dead. Michael Jackson the music from my childhood, the music that brought me and my sister together, the music that inspires that captures every beautiful beat, the man who made the moon walk what is. This man is more to me and more to music then anything and any one else. To know he is dead. I think a part of me has died.

hmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I'm starting a new drawing, its called the big crash, so far I have this big goddess in the sky and she has this almost bat like crown. And her dress kind of becomes a scene of both barbed wire and a train crash. If I finish it, it might be of actual uploading standards. Its unlikely though D:. 

MAN my head hurts alot! I've been getting to much sleep! Its annoying though, I have so much work, and yet so little will or time to do it, I just want to draw what I want to draw, I don't want to draw landscapes it does not interest me. *sigh* Alas this is the path I've taken.

I got a little bit drunk on my brothers birthday...just a little bit....okay maybe a bit more....hehehe was a bit naughty....
I plan on doing it again today actually...bad bex!

I looked out my window while avoiding some work and looked up at the sky, it was so beautiful I had to take a picture I had to paint it, which I plan to when I get a chance:



I hate all this work, I just want to sit around and enjoy the day, but then I feel I'm falling further and further behind every one else. I wish I could just sit outside and paint and draw and do what I used to be able to do, I feel like I've lost some thing in regards to what I want to do. I used to be so set, "I'm going to be a manga artist and tell real stories better then these cliched sell out artists," and nothing has changed I want to do it, but I can't theres no time. This is what kills kids, this work load, it prevents us from doing what we really want to. I think this is why people are unhappy, society won't let them get any where with out having to give some thing up. I don't want to give up, but  I see no other way.

mmmmmmmmmmmmm its been a while. It definitely feels like summer, I have my hay fever every day now which tells me so :)
I've been listening to olivia Lufkin again, I think I've fell in love with her all over again. I bought a dress the other day, its blue, and I got a beautiful blue scarf  its so blue! I bought some heart shaped sunglasses as well I love them alot!  It was Jamie's birthday on the tuesday, it was sad the night before we got into an argument over how much money to bring, I have so little because its my brother birthday and we've bought him an Xbox, I was so proud we did it, but I felt like I was made to feel that I should have more money. Anyway that was some mucky business but the day went well, we went to hyde park for a picnic. It would have been nicer if the wind hadn't been so violent while we lit the birthday cake candles. Then we went bowling I can't remember what place I came. Then we headed home. A few days before I went to oxford and had alot of fun, its a beautiful place, in the night time you can see so many stars, I want to take a picture of each and then take them home with me. Its so clear the sky, and the landscape is beautiful I got some great shots for my art. My creative juices are flowing so its great I have alot of art work to get on with. Alicia said she take some pictures of the clouds for me, you know right when they go pink and look like heaven, like the kind of clouds they paint and have the baby angels flying around. I want to paint that. Alas I have to do english course work instead and examine how love is presented by Arthur Millar and Ian McEwan in the books A View From The Bridge and Enduring Love. Oh well better get back to work. But I have such a head ache I just want to lye in the sun and dream of things to paint.

so everythings been resolved I think.....
I went clubbing for the first time ever last night, man it was really good! great guys great music great drink :D gotta do it again :D
Olivia Lufkin released a new single sailing free and I really like it, alot of people say they wish it was more like her lost lolli stuff but in my opinion its alot more like it then her more reccent trinka trinka stuff which wasn't as good in my opinion as well any of her previous stuff. To start off with it was like oh wow interesting but none of it you could listen to and discover some thing new not like bjorks stuff which evolves with each listen, you might not like one song the first listen but by the next your loving it. But with Trinka Trinka it just sort of lacked in the depth department, but I still loved it and was thankful she had released some thing. But this song I really love you have to listen carefully to it and the depth.

The press has such a lack of news seriously, so those of you who've heard about Christian Bales outburst this post is basically my thoughts on it.
There are two sides of me both at war really, one side is my love and respect for him as a man and an actor and the other side is my upset that he now has ruined his own professionalism and that in many cases he is in the wrong.
At first I thought it was funny and I was a little thrilled to see the usually emotionless bale freak out and go mad! But then it all got blown out of proportion, sure the bale should have handled it in a better way he is in the public eye, but people forget that he is only human and he was obviously upset not just about the fact this man ruined an emotional scene TWICE now come on he is an actor and people who are not actors obviously don't know how hard it is to get into the mood (or mojo) and I believe the bale wouldn't have freaked out unless other things had affected him, perhaps he and this guy already had a disagreement perhaps and argument with his "wife" caused him to be upset. He is ONLY A HUMAN hes not some unfeeling god who is perfect all the time (hes not keanu reeves guys) and to be honest hes not the first actor to have freaked out hes just been unlucky that people actually caught him freaking out. The whole thing has been taken out of context I found it convinent the guy on the recieving ends comments couldn't be heard well or had been cut while the Bales audio was clear. I feel even more upset that people now think hes being unprofessional and won't go and see his films, COME ON seriously your going to deprive yourself of a great actor and potential great films just because he got angry, sure the language was foul even by my fuckin standards but we all have our bad days and he had his.

My other side however is quite angry and thinking of quitting being a fan all together, he should not have gotten so angry he is in the public eye and it was bound to come out because of the violent nature of the outburst, I recently had a bad experience with a man who took his anger out on me and it left me petrified for a couple of days I subsquently moved classes to escape him. And seeing the bale act this way makes me draw comparions between the two men, both completely lost it and both behaved unprofessionally in a profession that requires it. I expect Christian will make a public apology and lets just hope that its heartfelt and he does it live for that is the only way hes going to get the public support.

so it was his birthday on friday and I certainly remembered it because it was my art deadline :'( I managed to get every thing in on time but my art teacher wasn't completely happy with my final piece which is completely her fault as she wasn't in on the wednesday before the deadline date so I had no way to ask her if what I was doing was right. So I was basically still doing the final piece right up to the deadline time. So it was a very busy week, lots of all nighters not to mention my Laptop decided to explode, literally I have no laptop at all :'( so I'm using the super old super slow computer, so this basically means very little online time so very little LJ time. My photography is also due in on the tuesday and I have done only one final photo. I also have a load of work that I had to put off because of the art deadline. GOD my life is pretty much a spiral of work :(.
Anyway happy birthday christian have a good one!

I think its about time for some self loving! so yesterday I did like most of my cope (random thing we have to do) and well I only realized once I was almost finished.....................IT WASN'T DUE IN THE DAY I THOUGHT IT WAS yeah I know big facepalm moment! any way I then treated myself to a manga rampage downloading some super gay and super amaze mangas and just sat there enjoyed my time. I then went out and got drunk with my family at an italian restuarant. But this is all not what makes me love me, hahahah no no, the next day I cleaned my room :O and I did it properly so I was very proud of myself and the two black bags I filled ;D
hahaha well there are only a few occassions when I get to actually feel proud of myself, by tomorrow I'll be back to self loathing and travel into town to eat a hot dog.
I just got Bjorks Telegram album and I have to say it is AMAZE so any bjork fans out there I totally love this album and those who don't have it GO GET IT

Dear Live Journal management,

Please stop advertising your stupid Twilight IQ test, seriously, its not going to make me want to take your stupid IQ test and makes it even less likely I am going to with god damn Twilight splashed all over it. Even when you KNOW I'm a member of Twilight sucks, surely thats incentive enough.

Yours Angrily R.Araujo

I do not get you LJ you taunt me to the point of madness!
Happy New year every one!

OKAY had to write this before I collapse and post an aftermath of the fashion show which deserves allll my attention.
But I was sitting in my living room innocently enough, just gaining some energy, deciding to look around at the ant-twilighters community, and guess what came on E4 GUESS GO ON GUESS!
"when you can live forever............."
my head turns and there is Kstewarts ugly face looking all OH MY GOD!
and then I screamed, I actually screamed in pure HORROR!
really WHY E4 their advertising it and doing a competition for it, WHY WHY WHY!?!?
SO I'm off to recover the eyes that just burned out of my head.

god damn talk about ruining a good day. I got home having no idea what the date is, signed on to msn with my lovely michael dp waiting for me, and then and then I GET THIS. TWILIGHT PREMIERES TODAY!?!?!?!?!? wtf when did that happen with out my knowledge!?!?!?! I cried when I saw the amount of fans. WHY BRITISH WHY DO YOU FAIL ME NOW!!!! I'm so glad I was born in Belgium at this moment
Kirsten looks butters so ha, I felt proud though in knowing that there were def. less fans at the twilight premier then there were at the Dark Knight premier, so Christian WINS! Can any one tell me wtf Robert was doing at the end of the first video. Seriously wtf. The interview man looked SO bored hahahaha.
Seriously hope it FAILS, COME ON BRITS REMEMBER HARRY POTTER REMEMBER HIM! REMEMBER GOOD LITERATURE!!!!

well I've been meaning to upload some stuff as I've done some while being ill, so here is one! I uploaded more, but it would require me to do some actual wacom editing and I'm feeling lazy :D

( here we go! )

Hes not hot but he makes me cry with laughter!
I've been bad though, I've left all my work for the weekend and its not gonna get done in time
my bad D: